Well, I guess I never really considered myself to be a leader. I'm too scared of failure. I'm not much of a follower either as I don't like people telling me what to do. I am very stubborn and stuck in my ways of doing things. So, maybe "get out of the way" is more my type. I have always wanted to do things on my own without anyone interfering. Working alone is where I feel most comfortable and confident. I work well in teams and find it better to be the first to suggest ideas than to sit and wait for someone else to pitch theirs. I am very democratic but would rather not be a part of it. You can say that I am a loner and I am very much wrapped up in my own head. Being a leader isn't something that I see myself becoming intentionally. I don't like feeling responsible for others' success because I would put way too much pressure onto myself. I never fare well under pressure. I wind up imploding in on myself and being way too critical of my capabilities. At the root of it all, I'm just a scared girl who wants to be good at everything and fail at nothing. I can't bear letting people down or having to get someone's approval of my performance. So I just do what I need to do for me and if it helps others along the way then that's an added bonus. I can't take confrontation so I'd rather go it alone. It's a lot easier disappointing myself rather than a group of people. Therefore, get out of my way and let me do it my way. Everyone will wind up benefiting in the end.
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